I remember sometimes logging on, checking my inbox just to see 20 messages of "fuck my life" "this sucks" "I'll kill myself" and stuff like that.
I remember my ex not saying much if it wasn't stories about her OH SO miserable life...
I remember me being younger, wondering what the hell was wrong with me, what was this shitty feeling, until I realized it was simply life trying to get in.
I remember my friends spending DAYS whining about that one person they hated.
And when I think of it all, I can only react in one way: you deserve it
NO, you don't deserve to be treated badly. You don't deserve to have a bad life. Hell you don't even deserve life itself. "what you deserve" is a myth. What happens in your life is purely the result of people's actions and thoughts. Everything has a consequence, and your own thoughts aren't an exception to that rule. The more you think about something, the more power it has over you. And remember that "hate" isn't the opposite of "love". It's the exact same thing, but with another degree of appreciation. The opposite to both of these is "indefference"
So if you hate someone, let it go. You'll feel much better.
What I mean is, unless you REALLY want to keep feeling like shit, stop telling yourself that you feel like shit. Ignore it, keep living. Go out, start something new, do some exploring, get to know some new people, learn something... it doesn't matter that you aspire to.
Just don't wait until you're feeling right to start, because it WON'T happen. That little sting on the heart... you feel it once, it's there forever. It's NOT a bad thing. It's actually proof that you're alive. So go out, LIVE.
Take risks, don't stand on the same ground for too long, take a path not because you want to, but because you're curious.
'Cause in the end, what is life?
It's only the experiences you live. And that, that can only be decided byt the one who's reading this.
Don't waste your time. You're only living once, and by the time you hit 20, 1/4 of your life's already done.